Seasonal

Darkness hovers outside my window as I spotted a thunder storm brewing in the East. Lightning crossed the grey-violet evening sky as flashes of bright white light occasionally filled the horizon just behind the trees, which are now but silhouettes turned dark by the night.

Gusty winds blew haphazardly and shook the stillness of the trees' leaves. The rustling of the leaves added rhythm to the sound of objects flying and hitting the roofs of my neighbors' houses and to the rumbling of the dark clouds approaching me.

Amidst this action, there was a creepy silence that hang floating in the air.

There was something about the scene outside my window that frightened me. It felt as though an impending doom far greater than natural seasonal change was about to take place. Visions of high-magnitude earthquakes that will hit Manila echoed in my head.

The Apocalypse?

I prayed not. Begged of it not to come. I prayed again, but now of stronger faith.

Then, it came. The sound of a thousand drops of water splintering against the earth hit my ear as gusts of it breathed on my face from outside the window. Behind it, a cool breeze filled my nose with the sweet smell of fresh earth. Now, except for the occasional lightning, total darkness has fallen outside. A downpour of heavy rain has conquered the night sky. Meanwhile, clouds crackled happily, announcing its victory.

The rainy seasons have begun. I welcome its arrival humbly, ashamed of my thoughts.

With sensibility regained, I am confident it will stay to battle the wrath of El Niño in the coming days.

Random

I have so much up my head lately. So much stuff I wanted to put up this blog spot of mine but couldn't and don't have the time to spare to put on paper, nor at the very least, onto the Net.

So I've decided to cut some time off my routinary schedule and give a little time to unclog my brain.

Well, what has been up with me lately?

On the general side, life has been good and blessed. I'm still living with my husband. Thus, it's good to note that my marriage is up for repairs and, God-willing, will be smoothened out real soon.

Hmm...then my weight's doing okay. I'm currently enjoying the way my old clothes are fitting in just right. Though, I'm really frustrated at how my tummy and abs tuck out like that. Hehehe, still have alot to do on that one, along with my rear and hierloom thighs. (I happen to have inherited my dad's side of physical assets, where everything is mostly, uhm, BIG.)

Healthwise, I'm okay. I haven't had an asthma attack (shhh! my lungs might hear and decide to launch one.) in months since August last year. But I still intend to live a healthy lifestyle. One in which I can do anything I want and will to, without me worrying that it might trigger an attack or become too sweaty to even start it. Hehe.

My career? That's one thing I haven't given much attention though. My ideas are still cramped up in a pile at the top of my desk. The novels and short stories I intend to write and send off to a children's book publication or adult press are still years in backlog. I promised myself I'll have something printed this year. Duh?

It feels hopeless with me burdened with so many things to do. As much as my husband doesn't understand it, being a housewife, freelance-writer-extra-family-income-provider, and his business' secretary-accounting-clerk is one tough job to meet on time. So, I admit. I have poor time management. That's another thing I have to learn quickly and for real. I have been trying to do so for the past four years, but hey, I'm only human.

Then, there are the so many frustrations that boil in my chest. Our own home, financial independence, new paint for our bedroom, a laptop, an out-of-town vacation for one whole month, a baby of our own, new curtains for our windows, a decent bed, an aquarium table, a full-to-the-brim savings bank account... the things you think of when you're young and want to have a good life.

Well, I could learn to be content as a quick solution. I could also decide to equip myself with discipline. But I'm subject to imperfection as all humans are. Life is wonderful but humans are really complicated.

I think, that's about it for now. Well, just for now.

So, what's up with you lately?